Hell is not knowing

Having no hand stretched out

No one waiting

Hell is being lost

Hell is crying to no purpose

Hell is desperation

It is dead ends and no ends

It is being full of anger and

not knowing why

It is being afraid

Afraid of … .

Afraid of nothingness, purposelessness

Afraid of deception

Afraid of being completely wrong.

Afraid of the inner journey

Just gets emptier and emptier

Afraid of the outer

Only further to go

To where?

I want to believe

but can’t by wanting.

I don’t want anything from you

Only to know that you are there